2 Years

This week, May 1st, we will celebrate two years of sobriety for JP.

This is a huge milestone for our family and one that we love to celebrate!

Two years ago, I really didn't think we'd be anywhere close to where we are today. We were falling apart. JP choosing sobriety that day was huge, but, it was only the beginning of the work we both needed to put in to heal.

We were both deeply hurting, deeply broken, desperate for God to save us.  I didn't know how bad JP's addiction truly was, as he was hiding the amount of drinks he was consuming. I knew he wasn't ok and was begging the Lord to heal him. Actually, I didn't really believe that God could heal him. I thought he was too far gone, I put God in a box, and was sinful in thinking the Lord couldn't heal him. I was a sad, lonely, anxious, angry, and an exhausted-a shell of a human.  JP was dangerously addicted to alcohol, hopeless, weary, weak, and defeated. We both were at rock bottom and so far apart from each other- just coexisting around each other.

But, GOD stepped in.

Rock bottom is exactly where He needed us to be so we could see how much we needed Him! God showed up in powerful ways. He provided community around us that fought for us, encouraged us, took our kids when we needed time, and got on their knees in prayer for us. God provided support from another couple who had walked the same road-- that could speak truth in to us, guide us, and encourage us that it does get better!

I had a lot of bitterness and lack of trust I had to work through. JP had a very powerful addiction to fight. So that is what we did! We both went to work, surrendering our lives completely over to the Lord, and let Him heal us. It was such a slow process for me to gain trust that JP was serious this time. I had to give him to Jesus, daily. But, we put in the hard work, over time, through community and we've come out fully dependent on the Lord.

God gave us the gift of desperation and what a good gift it was. We got to-- and are still-- experiencing God in new depths.

We trust Him. We cling to Him. We have tasted and seen that the LORD is good.